I titled this post after Michelle Williams’ song not only because it’s me and Nemiah’s favorite gospel song that we love to jam to, but also because the mantra speaks to my soul. You’ve all heard it before, when we make plans for ourselves, God just sits back and laughs. Well, that’s exactly what he’s doing right now and I’m laughing right with him. Here’s why:
My daughter has attended a Parochial school since kindergarten. Thanks to my employment, I have always been able to pay her tuition and keep her in a great school. My main priority as a mom is to invest in her education, so when I planned to quit my job, the first order of business was to devise a financial plan that would allow her to continue to attend her school until she graduates in two years.
So here’s where it gets good. Last week, I got a call from her school informing me that they had a surprise for Nemiah on Friday and if I could be present at the assembly at 10am. They wouldn’t fess up to me about the surprise, they just wanted me to keep it a secret and be present (I was happy to oblige!).
Of course I was all sorts of anxious and curious to know, but I held up my end of the bargain and kept mum about it. Come Friday morning, I got all jazzed up in this gold sweater and excitedly prepared for the day ahead. My baby was completing her last day of 6th grade and something great was going to happen.
Usually, I work from home on Friday’s, but since I did not want to go back home after dropping her off at 8am, I went to the local Panera to get some work done before it was time for the big reveal. Once I arrived at the church where the assembly was to be held, I made myself comfortable in a little corner to keep from being seen by Nemiah, so not to pique her curiosity as to why mommy was randomly there unbeknownst to her.
As the program progressed, I got more and more anxious not knowing what to expect. The principal and Father of the church congratulated the students for completing 203 days of school, they prayed a solemn prayer for all the children to have a safe and blessed summer. Then the principal said, “Now it is time for our awards and recognition”. Kids were being awarded for their academic excellence and good conduct. Then I heard it, “The scholarship goes to, Nemiah Gerald! We’d like any parents present to please come forward”. Tears began to stream down my face as I made my way to the front. Once Nemiah realized I was present her eyes swelled up with tears. I wrapped her in my arms and kissed her full cheeks. We were both a hot mess trying to smile for pictures through the tears. Words cannot express how immensely proud I felt.
I truly did not see this coming. Both of us were clearly caught off guard. The scholarship was awarded to a child who maintained honors and had a parent or guardian who served in the military in honor of two fallen soldiers who were brothers. Arvens had to work, so of course his presence was dearly missed. We both could not wait to tell him. Meanwhile, Nemiah made sure she got a hold of my sister and my parents to tell them the good news.
Metallic sweater-TJX/Cropped denim & Bag-Zara/Shoes-Valentino
Here I was crunching numbers and creating schedules while God had this in store. I didn’t even ask for this in my prayers, I was relying on my own capabilities, but he saw it fit to bless me in the most unexpected way. I’ve received messages from a few of you asking how I had to courage to quit my job and jump into uncertain waters….well, faith is the perfect answer and this right here is why I will continue to dwell in it. If only you knew all the blessings that have been flowing; one day I will write a tale, but until then, keep up with my journey to see how it unfolds. Now do you see why God is just laughing up there?